1.
Aethereal
2.
How Come?
3.
The Mirror
5.
To All My
Friends (On Departure)
6.
Dumb
7.
In The Mist
10.
Sacrificed
11.
It
12.
About You
13.
Don't Let It Go
14.
Heart
15.
The Thread
17.
Sleepless
18.
Never Asked
19.
Waiting
20.
Together
21.
Be
22.
The Three Gifts
23.
Drinker's Truth: The Ascent
take
all the sorrows of the world
and
one more time feel your true self
shed
all your tears to wash my face
no
smile will light your way to grave
forget
your friends they're nothing good
they
take your choice and give you dreams
it's
time to go you never hear
black
clothes makes all you've had in life
i
cannot help you fade away
but
you can't see the vacant chair
some
tears they never come to be
some
voices circle in the air
No time to turn from ash to man,
No final drive to become just
dirt,
No reason found to throw an honest
smile,
No will to show how all the smiles
can hurt.
I've
seen evil
In
the eyes
In
the mirror.
I've
felt anger,
I've
felt hatred,
I've
felt fear.
Too
much to lose,
Too
much to gain,
Not
close enough
To
ease the pain.
So you freed yourself from love,
Threw away what it could bring.
So you did, and now you're glad.
Does it really change a thing?
Now you know when bleeding stops,
What tricks to play to keep mind
clean.
But at the very end of nerve:
Does it really change a thing?
You worked so hard to build the
walls,
Much harder, though, to stay
within;
You need not listen any more,
But does it really change a thing?
As brilliant fool you trod your
paths
To let another sunlight in.
Now it can warm what's never
there…
Does it really change a thing?
You own the music that you hear,
Own each and every picture seen;
You can control all that you feel
-
But does it really change a thing?
TO ALL MY FRIENDS (ON DEPARTURE)
You
all have got the best of me -
I'd
like to offer more!
I
think it's time to go before
The
time of ours, time of glee,
Becomes
the time of sore.
I
know you'll miss me but I'm sure
That
if I chose to stay,
You'd
have to miss me anyway,
For
all my dreams have hit the floor,
And
all my passion's gone away.
You're
marked forever with my life -
With
every single deed
You'll
make my phantom cease to bleed,
You'll
make my phantom cease to cry,
You'll
make him cease to need.
What do I need?
What do I need to become?
What sort of seed
has grown in me for all this time?
What stories do I have to tell
when there are lots I could sign?
When will the lie come to an end?
When will this fuckin lie
come to an end?
Tonight
I cried out her name again...
I should cherish what I've got
and instead
I nurse my pain.
Like unwanted child it comes
and my shoo is not enough...
And I crawl and wish to be
someone I could like.
Hey
You
seem to have lost your way
And
when you turn around
There's
no turning back
No,
there's no way back
The
fuzzy shapes of what you see
The
fading sounds that you can hear
The
ghosts of people you could be
They
only feed your fears
But
you're going the right way
You
know you're walking the right paths
And
no one could do this better
And
in this place, in this time
With
all the screaming around
You
know there's no one to do this better
Brave
You've
never tried to ask for help
Your
voice wouldn't break through the cold
Now
seeking any trace of home
Have
you ever had a home?
Dark
You've
always loved the dark at heart
Now
that you've found your light inside
It
doesn't seem to light a thing
It's
useless in the mist
And
you're seeing the wrong things
But
you're doing the right things
No,
no one could feel it better
With
all the chasers behind
And
with no one beside
You
know there's no one to take it better
You
don't care
What
kept you on the track, it's gone
Yes,
you're on your own
You're
all alone in the mist
But
you keep your direction
You
continue to move on
'Cause
you know no one knows it better
With
all the air to breath
And
with no hope beneath
You've
got no one to make it better
No,
you've got no one to make it better
Thought this life could not be
darker
With all the killers in my mind
Now the real has come to get me
To pay a debt I've never incurred
It's not that it scares me much
As pathetic as only it can be
Yet it's made me have no life now
The life in pain I've always hated
They can wreck me but they can't
defeat me
They will let the killers out
Innocence will have to cry
And I'll take your guilt again
You
can't imagine how it is
To
think of suicide every day
With
this ever-present smile upon your face
You've
always been so bright a girl
You
couldn't give a thought to
Not
caring for your family any more
I
know girl it's not an easy thing to think of
When
you've always had support
I
know you cannot comprehend
The
need to leave and search for home
But
girl you've always had a place to return to
With
someone waiting night by night
hurt at birth
given no chance
given to the system
betrayed by protectors
rebellion all a lie
following expectations
exact doer of their wants
no more love-me-please stuff
no more cries of fuck-you-all
even now a humble servant
but when the time comes
all the value turns to dust
the matter is
you can't use what you have sucked
up
so suck up more while you still
can
and the innocent will suffer
and the loved ones even more
die society time to die
time to waste your progeny
time to blow it fucking up
time to get annihilated
disappear
It's
here again
To
seize my throat
To
burn my guts
And
steal my thoughts
It's
here again
And
you are not
You're
with your pain
You
haven't sought
(For M.)
And when you come
With your secret mission to
accomplish
You look like time
Has never done you any harm
But in the morning
You wish so hard to wake no longer
And in the night
You fear so much to close your
eyes
And when you win
You're never granted satisfaction
And when you lose
There's no one standing by your
side
Under your skin
You feel there is another option
But when you choose
You never choose to stay alive
Wish you were mine
Have
you ever thought of what your god needs you for?
Have
you ever thought that I might need you more?
Baby,
please don't make it end before it begins
Please
don't ever pay for uncommitted sins
I
lie here down somewhere at the end of the world
And
you're up there, forlorn, a sort of sold
Who
sold you, babe, is it the ones you love?
Or
is it who you'd think that was above?
Or
is it you, my dear, for a price you thought was fair?
Forget
it all, don't give a damn, say you won't ever care
I
really knew just what to say just but a while ago
Don't
make it fade, don't make it go, don't let it go
scratch my heart
come scratch it open
make it bleed the poison out
disinfect and disassemble
throw away all rotten parts
then stitch together what is left
help it heal and make it scar
and if you can't i want it killed
so don't go sad when it must die
there's
a thread between the two of us
that's
made up of shiny little stars
and
the only thing I cannot stand
is
when the night comes
and
I can't reach you at the other end
this
little thread between our hearts
has
come to be my only guide in life
and
the only thing I cannot bear
is
when I long you here
and
know you long me there
these
little stars that shine so bright
they
pour all joy into my morbid heart
and
the only thing I cannot take
is
when I leave my dreams
and
still without you wake
so many doubts
so many unasked questions
and the only thing I know
don't believe me when I
pretend to know what to do
and never ever let me
hurt you
life's no poem
but can we somehow make it one?
forgive me if one night
I'm not back again with you
will you cry at my funeral?
4:30
in the morning
chocolate
Cave
some
unsent most-important-in-the-world words
been
thinking of you all night
wanted
to write for you
wanted
to write to you
wanted
to call you
wanted
to be with you
wanted
remembered
first writing
remembered
first sleepless nights
remembered
sadness
got
sad
got
better
got
sad again
afraid
knowing
sighing
wondering
can't get this rock off my chest
can't carry the load any more
crushed and unable to move
can't keep away from the chasm
gotta pass it through or fall
way too stiff to succeed now
can't break the dirty shell
and get to what blurs outside
time has got me imprisoned
move the rock and help me up
build a bridge and help me through
crush the shell and help me out
be around and give birth to me
again
sadness
takes over
don't
know why
some
familiar radio voice
some
thoughts of good-time shadows
your
room in my heart
it's
dark
you
must have drawn the curtains
your
things in my room
they
tell me
you'll
be back here
keep
telling myself
you'll
be back here
we should be together now
can't stand
hurts when you
hurts to hear you rejoice
withouth me
with others
enemies
hurts it hurts
for I should rejoice too
for you
want more
more and more
can't feel you gave it all
lines to be removed
can't see
can't feel
nothing matters but me
tell me
we should be together now
be
my rock, be my castle
be
my never-crumbling bastion
build
your walls around my heart
to
protect it from what's dark
be
my way, be my road
be
my path that leads me on
along
both sides install some lamps
to
throw your light wherever I am
be
my wood, be my forest
be
my hideaway from worries
let
me lay down in your shade
after
all my fights are made
When you gave me your meteorite
wish
I didn't know of what you felt
You felt I should be yours, I know
Now when I nurse it in my head
And when you gave me your
transparent stone
I didn't know just what you meant
You gave your heart, I know it now
Now when I hold it in my hand
But when you gave me the agate
ring
I knew your thoughts without a
word
I know them just as well right now
Now when the lives of ours are
shared
how
come you're lost again now, mister?
you've
got so high and you still worry
you've
found the one you always missed, sir
don't
simply let it be the end of story
the
hands that try so hard to make you move
the
hands that get you up each time you fall
her
hands are strong and now they're here for you
just
look and see, don't make her wait so long
she's
found the something she's been looking for
not
caring much she had to search in dirts
it
still don't matter if you're right or wrong
but
no more can you be the one who hurts